Monday, May 25, 2015

Death Up Close

The heavy-born heart-attack left him in a heap, on stony floor.
Strangers strung round lifting lifeless limbs, prying for a pulse.
In static silence stragglers stayed, and shared their very lungs,
while lunging fists in fits of futile strains upon his chest.
For 30 minutes, he lay still, piss upon his pants,
quite likened to the helpless babe I'd held that morning light.
Helplessly we enter, and helplessly we part,
It is the blinking middle, that sets our lives apart.
The paramedics came and shook his body with a jolt
and twice times ten they did again, and filled his corpse with volts.
Medicine streamed through him by straws stuck in his skin
All stood waiting watching, with the outlook growing dim.
A shiver filled me when at last, the dying man did sigh,
He breathed alone, his stomach rose, life not been denied.

The Maker of all things was present causing me to see
That the Supernatural was most clearly seen in the Natural around me.
The most miraculous thing I'd seen ever in my life, was how God breathed into a lifeless man, with twenty men beside.

In this I saw Him save the world,
using the world...
For God so loved the World.
This is my Father's world.

Monday, May 11, 2015

I still want it to be you.
Everyday.

Monday, May 4, 2015

Your little things...

...touch me big.
It's always been this way.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Out on the Weekend.

Scammed out of 2,300$ made me feel like the biggest National dingus, ever. But I went to a wedding the day after, and it was so beautiful, and lovely, and I was totally loosing it even though I didn't know the couple, but you could see the love, and I was overwhelmed by how stinkin' GREAT love, and marriage, and sex and monogamy, and food and music are... And I realized these are the things that matter - being happy in a moment, with those you love... That's what these jobs have brought me, and I thought they were a gift from God to help me earn money to finance my trip, but they were actually a gift from God, so that I'd have true souls to pour all my love into again, & have it returned, and in that, nothing has been lost. I even met a hairy hippie wholesome vegan boy handyman, and as much as I sorta like him, when Niel Young came on, I had instant tears and a flood of emotions reminding me: that there's a boy that's touched me deeper than all the other boys, and I do feel a bit bad, because no one is really able to compete with that.